My sweet baby girl turned one yesterday. It’s so bittersweet, especially since she is our last. I wish I could slow down time. The past year has been full of many ups and downs, laughter and tears. We lost 2 babies before I got pregnant with baby girl and then I was told at my first ultrasound that the sac wasn’t shaped like it should be and there was a good chance the pregnancy wasn’t viable. Needless to say I was devastated. I prepared myself for the worst. That weekend I went on a women’s retreat with my church and one of our memory verses was Ex 14:14. “God will fight the fight for you, you need only to be still”. This really spoke to me and I did a lot of praying. Five days later, I went back to the doctor and braced myself for bad news. Instead, within seconds of starting the ultrasound, the tech said “I see a flutter, There’s your baby’s heartbeat!”. I can’t express how happy and relieved I felt. I couldn’t stop crying. And not only did my baby have a heartbeat, but the sac was no longer misshapen and was perfectly round.
Nine months later, we were shocked when I delivered a healthy baby GIRL! I thought for sure we would have another boy and that was all I had pictured. I had washed all my newborn boy clothing and daydreamed about what a new boy would look like . We even had a room decorated for a boy(whom would have been named Sawyer)! When they said “It’s a girl!” I was completely shocked. I don’t even remember my husband cutting the cord! I was crying, my husband was crying and even my doctor was crying. The boys were THRILLED, especially my 4-year-old who had been praying for a sister
I remember telling my friend while I was in labor that all my boys had been such great babies and I had never experienced colic. Now looking back, I think I completely jinxed myself! The first 3 months of Little Miss’s life weren’t easy. She cried…A LOT. Nothing consoled her. And on top of that, she had latch issues which led to intense pain while nursing and caused her not to gain weight. We had to go to the doctor every week for weight checks and I had to pump in between every feeding. She was nursing every 1 1/2 to 2 hours so I felt like all I was doing was feeding her or pumping. She spit up constantly. I never thought I’d be so happy over a wet or poopy diaper but when you have a baby that’s not gaining weight, it’s cause for celebration! I also ended up with a prolapsed uterus after Little Miss which was scary. Thankfully, it didn’t require surgery but I was exhausted, sore and very emotional. I felt so bad because it was obvious my baby was hurting and there was nothing I could do for her. We just spent a lot of time rocking and crying together.
It was a rough start but we made it through and by the time she was four months old, she was a completely different baby. She was happy and smiled constantly. I have loved watching her grow and learn. She adores her brothers, especially my 7-year-old who was and still is completely taken with her She may be little but she’s determined! She started walking at nine months and does her best to keep up with the boys. She a complete mama’s girl and I adore her! We went to the grocery store this morning and she babbled and “talked” the whole time. Every time I look at her she would stop and give me the sweetest dimple filled grin. It melted my heart. I love her so much it hurts. I’m proud and blessed to be her momma and I can’t wait to see God has in store for my sweet girl!Belinda is a wife, mom, blogger, and Brand Ambassador. She has six children including 5 boys and 1 girl. Belinda enjoys reading, photography, crafts and DIY projects, and watching her boys play soccer. You may contact Belinda at mudpiesand tiaras at gmail dot com. Click here to meet Belinda